.happy birthday qiu xiong!.

excel test is so shitty!having obc test tml.haiz.

yeah meeting ah zheng tml!=)

this week

5 days since i last blogged.well.finally finish with my TLS project.damn.is so so stressful.finally is over.heh.supposed to meet pei zheng at newton on wed.but she couldnt make it on time and i had make a wasted triip there.argh!!oyaaaaa...watched harry potter on thurs!woohoo.is nice.kinda exciting.but compare to last few movies is kinda down standard.but..i still enjoyed.heh.woohoo!!gonna catch just like heaven but seem to b a old old movie le.heh.went shopping on fri with cindy.yeah!bought a demin skirt.is so nice.i love it man.heh.=)went to town.hai.is still de same old town.nothing new nothing special at all.heh.raelly wished to move out of singapore to other countires..

i'm pissed off with some people out there that loves giving ppl attitude.i simply cant stand them.it make me feel disgusted.and the worst thing is did i do anything wrong?The answer is NOOOO!! well.cant b helped.haiz.christamas is coming and i am broke.omg.this is bad!!can anybody just accidentally-purposely drop 600 bucks on de floor.and let me tis poor gal to pick it up?fat hope!gonna save save and save to have an enjoyable christmas.argh!

i wanna lose weight!!!why.firstly i wont b named ba ba by my dear classmates.secondly,save money!!heh.good deal rite.gonna start this slimming plan soon with qianjun.jia you okies!

u say sorry again and again.how many time have you say that i have lost count! i counldnt bring myself to forgive you anymore.i juz have to force myslef to forget all about you and move on with my new life ahead!i noe it is hard but i will.

life is more to a routine now.no more colours and sparks.

.the first day without him

woke up in the morning feeling kinda empty at the same time a sense of relieve.

the things i have done:

1. watched the show
2. went swimming
3. shop for my stationaries
4. played mini soccer with my small cousin
5. silly push ups and half sit half squad positions that hope to remove some fats frm my body
6. went to de library to get some books.got some really interesting books.(written by hilary bonner)
7. laughing excerise with them.heh.

i'm happy!!!:)

fallen out of love

its all over.that was the last sentence for us.
i have to put down the past and move on with life.he actually dumped me all alone at the mrt station.my heart was bleeding tears was dripping but i hold back.afterall there is no point crying over spilled milk.he had leave my world and there is no point asking him to stay.feelings that are gone will never come back.
to me.he dosent matter anymore.he is neither handsome nor smart.none of the people ard me asked me to go back.he hurt me again and again for the past 29 mths.i don't deserve this kind of traetment.
i promised myself i will never go back.i look forward to my life ahead.

.blogging.

i'm having big swollen eyes this few days.the doctor explain to me what causes in detail.but i don't seem to understand.in short it means infections of eyelashes.sound dumb rite heh.swollen eyes means cannot wear contact and means i have to wear spec.i kinda feel weird bot how i look with spec.lol.

apart from swollen eyes.i'm drown with the projects going on.shit.try creating a vaccine for bird flu.if i can invent it den i wont b still studying..but earning big bucks lo! the other was doing on homosexual.sound cool!we gonna go on street interviews fromer interviews and videotaping!!i'm lokking forward.heh.=)

oya.last weekend i went to emily rose.oh god.its so so so scary.not in de sense of the ghost appearing at times you dun expect.but is de devil thingy that is freaking me out.is like so evil and seem like out of control or nothing can help.den went to west coast for bbq.well.that was my first time there.my first impresssion is like."its so different frm east coast.more quiet.less people"hmm.its a beta choice heh.but its kinda out of place.difficult to get there heh.

on monday i went to his hoouse and cook spag!heh.de gravy is good.but the noodles seem to b undercook.lol.his parent tried and comment that the spag is as hard as rock.lol.but i still think that its not bad.heh.

friday met up with peizheng.went to her house!have losta fun.cool!

i think de class is having more bonding now.everybody seems to b like mixing ard and no longer stay so separated like before.tis gd.suppose its cuz of the projects that started to glue us all together!another thing.qiu qiu is making fren with my enemy.heh.she says she's not bad.but i still choose not to believe.heh.my impression of her will nv change.kidding!

sometimes i wonder why they love to fight for attention and stuff.dun they think is kinda childish.why cant they just forget everything that have happen in de past and move on with life.and in fact forgive and forget.i juz dun understand.i miss those times where all of us trusted each other.but i dun think is possible again.

zheng gonna finish her o's soon.cool.den i can spent more time with her again.but now she is already so so bothered bot her prom nite stuff heh.she seem to b sad bot her friends issue.just hope that everything is going to b alright!

oooo.my new motivation for going to lecture heh. i know his name le!woohooo.

today is a saturday.but still have to go back to sch and finish my vaccine project.heh.i really dread it!

.wishes.

my wishes:
1.to slim down.i think i'm putting on qiute a lot this few days.really gonna remove those fats ard me before its too late!
2.to try scuba diving!heh.it sound really cool to me.
3.spend more time with him.
4.adding more colours to my boring life now!!
5.to have more money.
6.get a 24" eeyore pushy!
7.cycling..
8.my eyes to recover now!!!!!

hehe.

the past few days

7 nov, a monday,went to bugis with xiaxia junjun and linlin.i went to repair my mp3 while xiaxia when to look for newspaper article for her frenz birthday.heh.kinda good inspiration for us to get gifts for our frenz next time. :) okok.had a grae laugh and home sweet home.

the other days i'm slacking at hm sleeping every moment that i am freee.i feel so tired.perhaps is all de morning lesson that have caused me to lose all my energy to do any stuff..even shopping!!okok.now i rmb when to jp to have pizza hut with the 3 gals during our break time.its super yummy.we never fail to spend our break time meaningfully filled with food.hahas.thursday braek we have our lunch in sch and ended roaming in de sch for de past few hours.walking round and round and round.wasting my precious time.played de swing!fun!remind us of our childhood.

ya.we talk abt marraige.they say i'm gonna b de 1st to get maaried among them.woohoo.would it b true.okok.true enough i'm nt that kind that are very independent.ya.infact very very super duper dependent.perhaps that de reason why they predict that i will soon find someone and settle down with.lol.i hope not so soon.heh.but i still think marriage is cool!!!

went to town with my best fren.pei zheng today.linlin and junjun have to do their projects.sad.okok.we went to cine to de same cafe.galilee frenz to have our lunch.its free flow of soup but i only have one bowl.wasted.kidding.i really love soup alot but today i feel kinda full for that.went shopping ard.zhengzheng wanna get her prom nite stuff.ya.they r having their prom at wadever town club.and pooor me have my prom in sch.i'm soooooo jealous.anyway ya she found a blue skirt.yuppiiee is nice.she look good in that skirt!i bought a mickey watch..cuz my betty boo watch's batt have gone flat!!!sad.ok.but i like de mickey watch now.catch up lotsa stuff with zhengzheng.i love outing with her.full of excitment and gossips!!gals outing rocks!

double dates

ya.read ppl blog,heard frm ppl that double dating is fun.ok finally got a chance to try it out junjun and her boyboy!yuppiiee.i agree with them is totally fun.but if enqing and ron have known each other beta perhaps things may turn out even beta.heh.
ok de first thing ron is late!omg.we waited for like so long.ok i'm angry.but kept it down.took a bus down to bukit timah near 6th avenue.there i a ritz cafe there.we went there for our shrudels.it taste superb.yummy.i ate de mango favour together with enqing while ron have apple and junjun have durian.de durain smell good.heh.tempting.gonna try it de next time.took a few photos.den we decided to go to adam food centre to ahve our dinner.i ahve de super big prawn noodles and rojak with ron.de noodles is like sooooo spicy.we cant even taste anything after that it juz totally go numb with our lips swollen.but after all de feeling is still gd.still thumbs up for de prawn mee.the food there is nice junjun and her boy boy have oyster and some other stuff.de food at de centre is good.but mostly malay food.sad.wanna try newton circle on sat.looking formward.yuppiiiee!home sweet home after that.cool day.

.my first step to remove my fats.

okay.i went to de gym today with ah yi.ya.manage to remove just a tiny puny bits of the fats cuz we were only there for 30 mins.there is only like 2 machine or rather three that i can make use of.de others were like all body building!and i cant find a machine tat helps to remove tummy.god.went to de pool beside to spy.saw small kids swimming arcoss de lap with free style.cool rite.they are superb!went to the stadium..did a few sit ups.ihope it does help!on my way back with ah yi we saw FRIED ICE CREAM.yummy.de last time i ate was like a few years back kinda sad rite.but i gonna taste it again.yummy.

junru msged me.a new fren made from bintan.=)cool.didnt expect her msg.

mens came.feel terrible!

i hate IS

went to sch alone praying tat de new IS class gonna have someone i noe.ya.cindy couldnt go to sch with me cuz she is sick.sad sad.ok.really sad

went to de class.only nic is de same class with me.and desiree.well.really have afte with her.same IS for both sem.and purple fren and many others frm cindy class.well.tis is bad.i feel so bored there.de project grp was worst.is like with desiree and vicki(desiree friend) and jeremey(kailin's xiao ke ai) and jasper.none of them i'm close to.really wonder hpw am i going to survive through tis 2 modules.

after de terrible grouping.went to meet him and alex for lunch.yummy.minced meat noodles.had a great evening with him!

.family outing.

cool. selamat hari raya!
went to k box early in de mroning with my aunties,uncles and cousins.there is 14 of us.cool.had a great time singing all kind of songs.including those oldies for my aunties!fish and chip was werved in k box.it taste kinda horrible!okok.went ps carrefour and shop for de necessary stuff.add a super big black pepper hotdog.it taste superb!but its damn ex.cost ard 3.50 for a suasage.

okok.went to kovan there for dinner.fried oyster satay grilled chicken wings and dim sum.taste good.but bad for my fats.i'm eating alot and alot and alot.feeel soo gulity!went to my cousin house fro a while to play.yup.its fun!

i'm happy!

i just hope everything is over

i had a big fight with him.tis is normal and i knew it had always been like this but i simply cant stand myself not deserving the things i expect from him.i just feel that i am no where and nothing to him.i hate guys.they juz make you feel that they are the best creatures in the world and always rite.he didnt bother to call back or come look for me to explain the stuff that i think need to b settle.and take upteen years to reply a msg.fcuk.

finally he called after i stop sending him my msg(to vent my anger).it does make my temper goes down a timy puny bit.but i'm still fed up.go eat shit and die bastard!!i noe my anger is not going to gone till night.fcuk.

lets move on i had enough.

went to ochard with my 3 crazy frenz during our 4 hrs break.ya 4 hours.how am i going to spend it.why cant de lecturers b kind enough to understand pur plight.damn.but i enjoyed de 4 hrs today.ate at de julilee cafe.ya.its our 2nd time there.free flow of soup.yummy.my saliva is drooping.i ate a huge grilled chicken leg.it taste really good but de meat isnt enought to fill my groaning stomach at that time.after de coke light(which is for dieting i suppose.i mean we.heh.) and 2 bowls of soup. i finally felt full.good.had a great laugh in de cafe talk abot almost everything under the sun including gossiping.heh.we juz simply cant get away from that.yak and yak and yak.2 hours gone.heh.took photos at de shop.hmmm.had a great time disturbing qianjun.putting the huge black spec on her face.make her look cool.heh.had a great laugh fun.

was named by them tweety cuz of my standing hair.is it really that obvious.thanks to de hairdresser.but its not tat bad after all.juz hope my hair can grow at a double speed cimpare to now.dots.lost my voice.laugh too much.sad.

it had been a great day.but was spoil by him.

long frindges

i miss my hair!really regret cutting it.at de back of de hair is all standing up.sad.and my frindges is like so super duper short.

for you

i hope you understand why i vent my anger and why am i angry.
perhaps wad happen yesterday really make me feel hurt.
i dun wish to all this things to happen.
i'm sorry.